1. I often worry that my superiors do not
approve of the quality of
2. I am highly regimented in my daily
personal routines such as exercise
schedule or devotions.
3. When circumstances dictate that I must
interrupt my daily personal
routines, I find myself out of sorts and feeling guilty for having
4. I frequently find myself conscious of my
status in relationship
5. It is difficult for me to take an
unplanned day off from work responsibilities
just to goof around or spend time with friends and family.
6. While away from work, I still find
myself thinking about work-related
topics, often sitting down to write out my ideas in length even if it
7. I like to plan the details of my
vacation so that I don't waste
8. I often explode in anger after being cut
off or irritated while
driving or over petty issues.
9. I am meticulous with my personal
appearance, keeping shoes shined,
clothes perfectly pressed, hair carefully cut and groomed, and
10. I frequently comment about the long
hours I keep and my heavy workload.
11. When others make sloppy errors or pay
little attention to detail,
I become annoyed and judge that person.
12. I am obsessive about the smallest
errors, worrying that they will
reflect poorly on me.
13. Fellow leaders in my church or
organization frequently question
whether my proposed goals and projects are feasible and realistic.
14. I am obsessed with knowing how others
feel about my sermons, lessons
15. I find it difficult to receive
criticism of any kind, reacting
with anger, anxiety, or even depression when it does come.
16. At times I feel myself thinking, I'll
show them; they could
never make it without me, when I experience conflict situations or
opposition to my proposed plans.
17. In spite of achieving what others would
consider significant success,
I still find myself dissatisfied and driven to achieve greater things
an effort to feel good about myself.
18. I am willing to bend rules and press
the envelope of acceptable
behavior to accomplish my goals.
19. I find myself feeling jealous of the
success and achievements of
associates, other churches, or organizations in my area.
20. I am often unaware of or unconcerned
about the financial pressures
my goals and projects place on those I lead or the church or
21. Success of failure in a project has a
direct bearing on my self-image
and sense of worth.
22. I am highly conscious of how colleagues
and those to whom I am
accountable regard my accomplishments.
23. I need to be recognized or "on top"
when meeting with a group of
fellow pastors, denominational officials, or associates.
24. I see myself as a nationally own figure
at some time in the future
or I have plans to attain such a position.
25. When I see two key church leaders
discreetly talking in the lobby
of the church, I worry that they may be talking about me.
26. It really bothers me to think about my
church's board meeting without
me being present.
27. When an associate receives rave reviews
for a sermon or some special
ministry, I experience intense feelings of jealousy rather than joy in
the success and recognition he or she is receiving.
28. I require subordinates and associates
to provide me with detailed
reports of their activities.
29. I struggle when an associate, rather
than me, is asked by church
members to perform services such as weddings or funerals.
30. I have few intimate or meaningful
relationships within my church
or organizations and find myself avoiding such relationships.
31. I insist on absolute loyalty from those
who work for me and prohibit
staff from criticizing me in any way.
32. I often worry that there is a
significant faction within my organization
that would like to see me leave.
33. I have probed people for what they know
or for special information
they may relating to certain leaders in my organization.
34. Those I work with often complain about
my lack of a healthy sense
35. I routinely refer to those I lead as
"my people," "my board," or
"my church" while bristling when the same designation is spoken by an
36. I tend to take seriously even
lighthearted comments and jokes directed
37. I grew up in a family of one or more
chemically dependent people
(i.e. alcoholics, drug addicts, etc.).
38. I grew up in a strict, legalistic
religious environment that held
its members to an unrealistic standard of behavior and discouraged open
communications about personal struggles and problems.
39. I am usually willing to put up with the
bizarre or embarrassing
behavior of others.
40. I often refrain from sharing my opinion
in a group setting until
I have heard the opinions of the others in the group.
41. I frequently worry about hurting
people's feelings by sharing my
42. I often feel responsible for problems I
did not create.
43. I find it difficult to sleep because I
worry about someone else's
problems or behavior.
44. I find myself frequently overcommitted
and feel my life is out
45. I find it extremely difficult to say no
to people even when I know
that saying yes will result in difficulty for me or my family.
46. I constantly feel a sense of guilt but
have difficulty identifying
47. I feel like I never measure up to those
around me and have self-deprecating
48. When I receive compliments from others,
I find it difficult to
simply accept them without making qualifying statements.
49. I find myself resisting standards and
procedures for formal review
of my performance.
50. It is common for me to procrastinate on
51. I regularly resist others' ideas that
could translate into increased
performance and responsibility for myself.
52. I find myself consistently
53. I experience periodic but regular
outbursts of anger and frustration
that are just within the bounds of what is considered acceptable
54. Occasionally I intentionally forget
55. Sometimes I give others the silent
treatment as an expression of
56. I find myself telling others that
nothing is bothering me when
in reality I am seething.
57. I tend to be generally pessimistic and
feel negative about my future.
58. Others have expressed to me that I make
them feel uncomfortable.
59. Strategic planning and goal-setting are
difficult for me.
60. Sometimes I catch myself trying to
manipulate others in group settings
by venting my anger and emotions when facing an initiative or idea I do